I can’t help it, I like to feel wanted
To be wanted because of what I am
Because of how I behave
Because of how I make her feel
Not for what I could become
Or for what I’m capable to give
…but what am I?
…who am I really?
I’m afraid I haven’t figured that out yet
So neither can she be sure of me
But if I had to describe myself
I’m a moment, a smile, a pause in time
A mirage in the journey of life
I’m a coffee break at 3pm
Nothing more but nothing less
I’m a recreational Saturday in a long week
Or a stay home night watching Netflix
I’m not the perfect guy like she thought
I was just the perfect right-now
The sweet that turns sour with time
The adorable pet that given the chance
Will run away and never look back
So you see…
I’m responsible for the character I play
But she is responsible for staying
My necessity for pleasing others
And my lack of ability for saying NO
Keeps me here, chained to a commitment
We are life supporting a relationship
Extending the inevitable
She’s daydreaming that it will work
And I’m trying to wake her up
Without hurting her too much
For you, reading this tragedy
And if it’s not yet too late
Learn to enjoy the little things
For what they are, not what will be
Learn when to say good-bye
It’s better to leave with a smile
Tag: poetry
At the end
One day I will look back
In to the eyes of the old me
Or in that case, the young me
And I’ll regret some things I did
And I’ll complain for what I didn’t
For not jumping higher
For not running faster
For not fighting harder
One day I will miss the strength
And I will shout but my voice won’t come out
The beating of my heart will make a louder sound
For one day I’ll start becoming less of me
And start turning into more like them
Before my three hundred years expire
And the color in my eyes start turning pale
And the meat in my bones start to decay
I want to wear myself out
To take my body to the limit and way far
And maybe when that last day come
I’ll look back with my pale eyes in to my fierce eyes
And feel proud of the flame that burned with desire
And I’ll close my eyes and let the earth take my bones
And my soul… fly to the sky and shine like the sun
Breaking up… with my dog
There was I,
standing on my two weak legs,
nervous, sad… Petrified.
My face was red and warm,
my eyes covered in shiny layers of tears,
my hands uncontrollably shaking
as I caress her brown and heavy head.
Her expression was stiff, confused,
she didn’t understand what was going on
but she knew there was something going on.
I fell to my knees and hold her head,
I got my face closer to her cold nose,
she felt that she had to comfort me
and ran her rough tongue around my cheeks.
I couldn’t hold the tears anymore,
as I crumble, weeping on her shoulder,
I felt her sadness taking over too,
desperate to make me feel better
rubbed my head with her big paws
and licked my hair and my tears.
This is good bye.
I got up, wiped the sadness from my eyes,
caught my trembling voice and breathed.
I pet her head one last time and walked away,
she tried to follow, until I got on the car.
her big wet eyes fixed in me as she tilted her head,
I heard her whining softly asking me to stay,
I know she understood then.
This is good bye.
I had to leave her,
I had to pursuit a better life
And she was not allowed to come,
I had to do better for both of us,
but I can’t ever say good bye to the pain
that caused me breaking up with my dog.
Tears in the sky 