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Breaking up… with my dog

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There was I,
standing on my two weak legs,
nervous, sad… Petrified.
My face was red and warm,
my eyes covered in shiny layers of tears,
my hands uncontrollably shaking
as I caress her brown and heavy head.
Her expression was stiff, confused,
she didn’t understand what was going on
but she knew there was something going on.

I fell to my knees and hold her head,
I got my face closer to her cold nose,
she felt that she had to comfort me
and ran her rough tongue around my cheeks.
I couldn’t hold the tears anymore,
as I crumble, weeping on her shoulder,
I felt her sadness taking over too,
desperate to make me feel better
rubbed my head with her big paws
and licked my hair and my tears.
This is good bye.

I got up, wiped the sadness from my eyes,
caught my trembling voice and breathed.
I pet her head one last time and walked away,
she tried to follow, until I got on the car.
her big wet eyes fixed in me as she tilted her head,
I heard her whining softly asking me to stay,
I know she understood then.
This is good bye.

I had to leave her,
I had to pursuit a better life
And she was not allowed to come,
I had to do better for both of us,
but I can’t ever say good bye to the pain
that caused me breaking up with my dog.

Happiness overrated?

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Yesterday evening when I was getting out of work, I read this post about a girl who wanted to be happy, but she didn’t established how, or what she considered “to be happy”. It made me think, or kind of analyze, what is happiness exactly and why is it the main goal for humans in their lifetime?
This was my answer to her post…

Probably happiness is overrated…
It is not even an action.
“to be happy”
“to be…
…happy?”
Look at it from the short term perspective,
The “try” more than the “be”.
“try happiness”
And the road to the goal
will be the goal itself.
It’s the “pursuit of happiness”
what fills us inside,
cause at the end,
happiness is like heaven;
everybody aspires to it
but once they get there
(if anybody gets there),
you won’t know about it.
Cause at the end
no one is completely happy,
there is something missing,
and that piece missing…
it’s the struggle to be happy

Broken dreams

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I’m giving up on my dreams
I’m giving up to follow yours
because with you I care for me
even if the flame dies in the journey

I’m pursuing an unreachable goal
I assigned myself an impossible task
always dreamed of changing the world
To erase the pain and inspire smiles

But I can not give up on you
and I won’t let you give up either
because by reaching your dreams
I might find myself in the process

I don’t know what it is to be selfish
I feel I’m failing either way I go
but certainly don’t want to fail you
I would much rather fail the world

So I give myself to you
take me whole in flesh and soul
cause for the child in me, I’m too old
but for the father, yet too young